• take the SATs (and do well)
• hang out with carly and punam to finalize plans (ducky's idea)
• go to a dance recital
• buy shoes (do all ball stuff basiaclly)
• go bowling at night -pretty soon i hope
• write a research paper
• do a french project or two maybe
• hand in back chem labs
• do the APUSH regents exams
• finish calc project
• try to get out of dissection and do it with so much grace that anderson will be left speechless (has that ever happened?)
• buy coldplays new album
• and last but not least, yay for finals

pack and get dressed
before your father hears us
before all Hell breaks loose
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sent in the camp application and heres hoping. i would kill for this job (not literally but still). california boy got back. really happy about that. i am missing my friends very much and there are some that i feel as though i need a break from.

 ap week is well on its way and i'm making it through. i keep playing the role of the 'little engine that could' TOOT TOOT!

so i'm still ill and i wasn't planning on an update but my dad and i had this rather funny conversation and i felt like it needed to be posted. let me try and recreate it the best i can:

(prologue) dad is mad at me for screwing up my leg. i want to go to a track meet monday (side note: i'm on the team). he wont let me.so here goes..

me: dad i need to go to the meet. i wont do anything since i'm physically inept
dad: then why do you need to go?
me: coach expects me to be there and as being part of a team, i want to go and figured that it would be nice to support
dad: well you're not going

(intermission) the two continue to fight and the conversation becomes heated (omnious music plays). dad's voice escaltes and i'm trying not to raise mine at the inane conversation we are having. after a series of mysterious turns we continue..

me: i will be there tommorrow
dad: no you wont.
me: why not

(then some stuff i dont remember takes place)

dad: well i guess then this means that you're living your life for me
me: dad that was the most idiotic thing for any one to say. much less for a father to say
dad: what is the matter with you? don't you dare say that i'm an idiot. you're done with social activities until i decide other wise!! (internally thinking:why is my daughter so messed up? i refuse to let her become a typical teenager and i know i dont care about the track meet. this is a matter of authority and i'm so damn good at hiding my intentions that she wont even suspect this is nothing about her leg)
me: (internally thinking: what are people thinking when they say such stupid things? this was never about the track meet. he doesnt really care. this has something to do with control. he thinks hes so good..)

(analogue) i go to SAT class and ponder how stupid his comment did sound. so now ladies and gentlemen, i leave you with a thought: who the fuck lives their life for someone else and much less asks their daughter to live it for them????? drop a note with your comments!

shitty night pretty much sums up april 1st for me. hope pia had a nice birthday. battle of the bands..NO SAUCE won. whoo whoo? clinton is nice and they people aren't too bad until they start fucking ripping on NH. yea so you suck, is that really that hard to deal with? the results were a tie between the awesomly great No Sauce band and the quasi good "i cant remember your name" clinton band. yea we all knew that clinton only got the award to save face.

so i think i caught some really bad because i cant even move without tearing up.everything hurts. the doctor has me in 9 tablets of ibuprophin everyday. does that not spell overdose or is it just me? i wonder why i went out last night. i cant wait for the meet on monday. i wish i could run. i think i'll lie and run any way. i was thinking i'd start running at home like b4 school and then at practice on the treadmills when i'm supposed to be swimming. the thought of swimming in our over cholorinated pool for the next few weeks to make up for track is not tempting. call me crazy but yea. i think i'm going to get my hair cut next weekend. i need this change. i was thinking super short or at least 4 inches shorter than now.